So this is not going to be a plea to get people to read any of the shit that comes out of my head. I don't expect them to do that. And I definitely don't expect them to comment on any of said shit. But...

I'm not going to keep posting here if I get no response.

Yes, its mean. And its forcing the three or four people that continually read to actually ((God forbid)) work to write at least "its good, you should keep writing" or "you suck what the fuck are you doing posting this bull here??" or whatever.

It doesn't bother me to just stop posting here. It really doesn't. It wouldn't faze me in one way or the other to just give up on this page altogether.

I don't give a shit. I'm busy enough with college as it is.

I don't need to be doing this. I do it because ((le gasp)) I like to.

I know I don't write as often as I used to, and that what I write is less immediately accessible as it used to be. I feel that I am growing as an artist into what I aspire to become. I feel that what I post is representative of what I enjoy fucking around with, creating something that resembles art, albeit lacking in original character. I keep my original characters out of this to keep them as my own creations. I use them in personal media that I prepare for publishing. You all on this site will not see much of them. Should I be ready to expose them to the teeming masses, I will be sure to let you know. They may never show up on deviantArt.

This is not, in any way, to say that I take myself seriously as an artist. Thats bullshit. I don't take myself seriously in daily life. I make rants about the uselessness of Morissey as a solo artist, for chrrissakes. I can't take myself seriously! I just don't care anymore. Its called apathy, kids, and its not a good thing. I never made any claims to be a good person. I have tattoos and gauged ears and dyed my hair unnaturally black. I make up stories about the boys that paper my wall falling in love and having mad hot sex. I thrive on caffiene and get about four hours of sleep a night. I hug rockstars I have the good fortune of meeting, often instead of taking pictures with them. I'd rather hug them anyways.

You don't have to read this if you don't want to. Its all a load of crap anyways. I'm just ranting and putting it up there for the masses to read, should they want to.

Other than the daily existentialist rampage about what it means to be a human being, I'm pretty good.

How about you?